the darkest part of this comic is the realization that they were both right
Come Together/Royals - The Beatles & Lorde
#the first note of come to together hit my ears and a tear dropped
“People call me the painter of dancing girls. It has never occurred to them that my chief interest in dancers lies in rendering movement and painting pretty clothes.”
After the arguments my mother
dices grapefruit with a vengeance: the slick
of wet metal, bulging orange flesh. Remember
the stories we fed on with mitten hands, cherubian lips?
Daughter adds too much flour to her dough,
mother sews herself into a quilt. The Lady on the Moon
weighs her jade rabbit and trickles the seconds into stardust.
I suppose none of us know how to manage.
When I crack eggs the shell still confettis
into the yolk. My mother’s English still peppers
into the phone like eraser ends, a little girl again.
My grandmother tended chickens; my sister sleeps
in tangled wires without the fear of catching fire.
Leda, in her honesty, plucks the silver feathers
of a swan.
Every other birthday cake has dribbled wax
between candle fingers like affection. The strings
bend ashen: broken spines.
Back then I never stepped on cracks in the sidewalk,
hopped over the moss pushing slabs
of concrete apart, wedging their small
plant feet into darker crevices.
When you are too old to count teeth —
a blessing. My sister sighs, sees rooted
among silver stars the threads of graying hair
and aging fingers.
break these seams with a yank of nail.
You were hopeless with a needle anyway.
Underneath, perhaps something generational.
After all, if you read me
like my mother’s palms, I think I, too,
grow more lined over time.
Stephen Seymour Thomas (American, 1868-1956), The Violin Student, Paris, 1891. Oil on canvas, 47.5 x 39 in.
Pretty heartbreaking. These beautiful and bright students deserve so much better. Above I included some of the photographs (there’s many more) of Black women who are students there because I think it’s important to point out how racism is not only impacting Whites’ perception of their intelligence but also how White people approach their appearance as well, in gender-specific ways. This is heartbreaking to me albeit not surprising. The myth that working hard = happy payoff is a fairy tale. Racism is ubiquitous.
I really wish them the best with their education and the ability to navigate these microaggressions and overt acts of racism. This stuff increases stereotype threat and impacts mental health and health which impacts performance. I want the best for them. Much love. ❤